Hops / 26 February 2002
(Constantly have dreams about people who are no longer in my life, either because of death or estrangement. Sometimes I’m surprised to see them, sometimes it’s natural that they should be there.)
The main character in Cv has a suit that belonged to his late grandfather and when he wears it the spirit of the grandfather sort of lurks in the periphery, sometimes interjecting with his own thoughts or memories, sometimes obnoxious. This clearly came from me inheriting my grandfather’s great black overcoat and wallet, both of which I’ve been using for five or six years.
In the mail the other day came his travel diary from the 1984 trip to Kenya and I was struck by the tidy, economical notes—
Still awake at midnight
And repeatedly, like a period at the end of each day: Hot shower, clean clothes, early to bed.